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Prison (part one)
People often ask me, βWhat was prison like? It must have been awful.β The truth is, prison isnβt just filled with drug users/ex users, returning offenders and the underprivileged as people like to stereotype. Many of the people I met were individuals who made one bad decision. Among my fellow inmates were solicitors, lecturers, bank…
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A Desperate Act: My Journey to a 2.5-Year Prison Sentence
For those following my blog, you are likely curious about the events that led to my 2.5-year prison sentence. Here, I recount the circumstances that led to that fateful moment. As detailed in my previous post (βLife with a Narcissistic Exβ), I endured an abusive relationship for approximately three/four years. His abusive behaviour worsened in…
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The Impact of Suicide.
At a young age, I had the unfortunate experience of facing suicide within my family. When I was 8, my biological father attempted to hang himself in the loft, but luckily the rope snapped. Five years later, he tried again with a mix of prescription, non-prescription drugs and alcohol. This time, he succeeded. Iβll never…
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My Experience with Psychosis.
To the best of my recollection, I have suffered only one significant episode of psychosis. In 2014, I was living a relatively normal life and had been prescribed 1500mg of Depakote. However, the medication caused considerable weight gain, prompting me to discontinue its use without medical consultation, a decision I would soon regret. I do…
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Getting Diagnosed
Growing up, I didn’t have much understanding of mental health. It was simple: you’re either crazy or you’re not, an addict or you’re not, a bad person or you’re not. There was no discussion about different diagnoses. Even today, getting diagnosed is a lengthy process, often happening after youβve already ruined your life. I remember…
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Hypomanic Crash.
After days or even weeks of being on an absolute f**king high, filled with energy, creativity, and productivity, there inevitably comes a time when everything comes crashing down. Today, I want to talk about this experience often referred to as βthe crash” that follows a hypomanic episode. For those unfamiliar, hypomania is a state often…
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Manifesting.
Dealing with a bipolar diagnosis while trying to embrace spirituality can be quite challenging. Sharing dreams or discussing spirituality often leads to people dismissing them as symptoms of (hypo)mania. I used to wonder how I managed to achieve my goals, unaware that I had been manifesting all along. As a teenager, I dreamed of living…
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Life with a Narcissistic Ex.
Living with a narcissistic, violent boyfriend was a living hell. Whilst Iβm not proclaiming my innocence during our relationship, my behaviour didnβt warrant the abuse he subjected me to. Itβs taken me 15 years to speak out on his behaviour. However, as I embark on my healing journey I believe now is the time. I…
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Narcissistic Parenting.
I thought today was a good day to touch upon the topic of narcissism, given the word βNarcissistβ has become βpop cultureβ. Narcissism isnβt something to be taken lightly or thrown around carelessly. While we can all display narcissistic traits, essentially being egotistical from time to time, etc. Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) is a serious…
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My Current Mood: Hypomanic
Today, I want to share a glimpse into my current mood, as I battle through another (hypo)manic episode. For the past three days, Iβve been in a state of relentless energy and excitement that is both exhilarating and exhausting. Sleep has become a distant memory. Despite feeling physically tired, my mind refuses to shut down.…
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Oversharing My Life Story at First Sight.
Picture this, youβve just met someone new. Maybe itβs a potential friend, a colleague, or worse, a potential lover. Youβre exchanging pleasantries, discussing the weather, and suddenly-BOOM! Out pours your life story, with all the juicy details. Welcome to my world, a crazy conversation fuelled by bipolar disorder and an uncanny knack for oversharing. So…
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Drug Addiction Through a Childβs Eyes.
Growing up watching your parents inject heroin and smoke crack is an experience like no other. Youβd think as a child youβd be their main priority, but no, drugs always come first. You become a sidekick in their quest for the next fix. Theyβd anxiously hover until they secured their supply, then theyβd hastily dump…
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Do I Agree with My Diagnosis?
The answer to whether I agree with my diagnosis is both yes and no. Do I think I have bipolar disorder? Absolutely! I experience impulsivity, severe mood swings, and have engaged in risky behaviour. My erratic nature makes it clear that I have a mental health condition, something that isn’t easily concealed. Do I think…
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My Childhood.
From a very young age, I knew I wasn’t like all the other kids. My life had a peculiar start that set me apart. Abandoned by my biological mother and father, I was adopted by my mother’s adoptive mother. This unconventional family structure contributed to a sense of being in a different world altogether. I…
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Trauma.
I have long intended to start blogging and vlogging, but the past six years have brought a series of profound challenges. A significant move away from London marked the beginning of another crazy period in my life, including a two-year legal battle with my ex-partner following his assault on yet, another woman. This period was…
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Is Mental Illness Genetic or Environmental?
The debate over whether mental illness is primarily genetic or environmental has long intrigued scientists and individuals alike. From my personal experience, I believe itβs a combination of both. My Family History: Mental illness runs in my family. My father battled severe depression and my mother was diagnosed with paranoid personality disorder. Growing up, I…
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Antisocial Personality Disorder: Understanding the Symptoms and Characteristics.
Iβd like to delve into the complexities of Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD), previously referred to as sociopathy. While often sensationalised in the media, ASPD is a serious mental health condition that affects individuals and those around them. Let’s explore what ASPD entails, its symptoms, causes, and potential avenues for support and understanding. Defining ASPD: Antisocial…
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Bipolar Disorder: Understanding the Symptoms and Characteristics.
In the wake of mental health, bipolar disorder is a complex and often misunderstood disorder. Itβs not merely mood swings; itβs a profound journey through highs and lows that can leave individuals feeling lost in the tumult of their own minds. Defining Bipolar Disorder: Bipolar disorder, formerly known as manic-depressive illness, is a mental health…
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Bipolar Mum Journey 