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She Was βAggressiveβ | No, She Was Just Everything Youβre Not
How many times have we heard it? βShe was aggressive.β A line so worn out it might as well be tattooed on the ego of every man whoβs ever felt intimidated by a woman who dared to speak up, stand tall, or simply exist without shrinking herself. But letβs be honest, aggressive? Really? Or is…
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Giving Birth in Prison: pt2
Look, Itβs never ideal for a woman to enter prison pregnant or give birth there, but it does happen and we need more balanced, compassionate press coverage to reflect that reality. I donβt understand why there isnβt more coverage on what itβs actually like to give birth in prison, from women with lived experience. The…
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Prison is no holiday camp.
I donβt know why people go to the press claiming prison is like a holiday camp, itβs not. Prison is a shit hole. Sure, there are some good days, and even I had moments where I didnβt mind it, but the bad days? They completely outweigh the good. Anyone who says otherwise either wasnβt inside…
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My Step Dad the White Rasta.
Where do I even begin with my stepdad? Back in the 80s and 90s, he was a white Rasta, fully immersed in Rastafarian culture. He worshiped Jah, the Rastafarian term for God, a spiritual figure rooted in Ethiopian emperor Haile Selassie, whom Rastafarians revere as a messiah. My stepdad couldnβt have been more different from…
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My view on #MeToo
The #MeToo movement has sparked an undeniable shift in our society, offering survivors of sexual harassment and assault a platform to share their stories and find solidarity. While the movement has done wonders in highlighting issues long swept under the rug, itβs also left many feeling that we need a more inclusive approach one that…
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The Cycle of Abandonment.
Abandonment can take many forms physical, emotional, or psychological and its impact is profound. It creates deep-seated wounds that ripple through generations. As youβre probably aware by now, my mother was abandoned at birth and sent to an orphanage in 1968. This foundational loss defined her life, embedding within her a sense of insecurity and…
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The Hidden Dangers of Inmate-Officer Relationships.
People may not fully understand how often prison officers make inappropriate sexual advances toward inmates; it happens far more frequently than most realise. If your partner works in the prison system, thereβs a high chance theyβre regularly flirting, if not engaging in more. Itβs hard to say why they lack self-control, but the intense environment…
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Hypersexuality in Bipolar Disorder.
After everything I went through in my younger years and early 20βs, my libido and sexual desire was non-existent. But in my late 20s things took a turn, my sex drive skyrocketed from non-existent, to through the roof. Even though I had been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, no one mentioned βHypersexualityβ being a symptom and…
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The Positive Traits of Bipolar Disorder.
When people hear the term βbipolar disorder,β their minds often jump to negative stereotypes or generalisations. A quick online search usually brings up the challenging aspects of the condition, painting a picture of instability and unpredictability. However, this portrayal doesnβt tell the whole story. While bipolar disorder can indeed present challenges, it also comes with…
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Taking Accountability For Your Diagnosis.
We live in a world where youβre criticised no matter what you do. Throughout my life, Iβve worked hard to manage my diagnosis to ensure I didnβt cause my children any trauma. Iβve sought out every resource and authority available, completed every parenting course, and read every recommended book on the subject. I openly acknowledge…
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Understanding the Overlap Between ASPD and Bipolar Disorder.
Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD) and Bipolar Disorder are distinct mental health conditions, but they share some overlapping features that can make diagnosis and treatment complex. Understanding these overlaps is crucial for accurate diagnosis and effective management. 1. Impulsivity One of the most significant overlaps between ASPD and Bipolar Disorder is impulsivity. People with ASPD often…
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Bipolar Rage.
Anyone with bipolar disorder struggles to contain their emotions, a challenge often referred to as βbipolar rage.β While everyone experiences outbursts as part of being human, those with bipolar disorder often lack impulse control, leading to more frequent and public displays of emotion. Itβs important not to judge these outbursts, as individuals with bipolar disorder…
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Bipolar Impulse Purchases.
Having bipolar disorder means we often lack impulse control, especially when it comes to spending money. During a hypomanic state, we might find ourselves reaching for the phone to make online purchases. Often, we get inspired by a business idea, and before we know it, supplies for the next grand project are arriving at our…
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Prison (part two)
An officer arrived at A wing to transfer me to C wing, a protection unit housing vulnerable inmates, child abusers, and pregnant women. I have no idea why they would place child abusers alongside pregnant women. I cleaned my cell and tried to settle in. A few nights later, water began flooding my cell because…
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Giving Birth in Prison.
While awaiting trial for grievous bodily harm with intent, I entered into a new relationship. Although the timing was far from ideal, I unexpectedly became pregnant. In a state of panic, I called my solicitor to ask whether I would be forced to terminate the pregnancy. She explained that some female prisons in the UK…
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Abuse Of Power: My Ordeal With A Prison Officer.
If youβve been following my blog, you know that I spent some time in prison. I acknowledge my wrongdoings and accept my punishment. While at HMP Peterborough, I intended to use my time constructively by taking every possible course to improve myself as a parent and person. However, my experience was marred by a coercive…
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Prison (part one)
People often ask me, βWhat was prison like? It must have been awful.β The truth is, prison isnβt just filled with drug users/ex users, returning offenders and the underprivileged as people like to stereotype. Many of the people I met were individuals who made one bad decision. Among my fellow inmates were solicitors, lecturers, bank…
Bipolar Mum Journey 